i found IT!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."

This verse has become a sort of theme for me. There have been many times when God is requiring something of me that I do not understand and that is not logical, but as I TRUST in Him, He leads, directs and provides for me in every way possible.

This season is no different. It’s funny, I speak to people and in their good intentions, they seem to almost think I am “searching” for something and that is why I like to move and am willing to uproot life again! But I have to say… the reason why I do the changing and am more than willing to obey God at His word in any adventure, is because I HAVE found something. I am not still searching. I am secure in the prize that I sought after and have found.

It doesn’t make sense that a single woman would be willing to relocate and uproot and adjust her entire life for the sake of God’s call. But can I tell you, I would do nothing else! If God asks something of me… I want to be a woman who will NOT hesitate no matter the extremity of the obligation.  God is the One who makes sense of my life. He gives me purpose and reason.

As I walk this crazy journey of twists and turns I will acknowledge the amazing things that God does! I will reveal His purpose, His plan, His ways!! His word is true to me when He says “acknowledge the Lord and He WILL make your paths straight”. I want to give the glory and praise to Him for what He does in me and through me! The adventure that He takes me on actually has nothing to do with me. If I wasn’t willing to go, He would fulfil His purposes with another person. But man, I would be miserable and I would miss out on some of the most incredible and deep lessons of life.  And I am not like any other person on the face of the planet, and God longs to use ME. I would never give that privilege to another.

God in His goodness has put in me a deep desire to see His life reflected off of me. There is nothing that I want and crave in this world more than that. I want it so bad sometimes that I am willing to give up, let go of, and release anything that may dim His reflection. This process of purifying Him in my life is not easy and I definitely do not always get it right, but the core of me longs for just that. His life revealed in mine perfectly and beautifully.

So when people say “I hope you find what you are looking for” I simply smile and know that I have found HIM. He is mine and no person and no thing can ever take Him from me. He is my peace, my stability, my home and my everything. I do not look to this world to make a “home” for me. It is a sweet notion, but honestly the depth of my heart is at home wherever God takes me… as long as I have His presence with me, I am home.

He is my prize, He is my all, my home.