There are BIG dreams that stir inside my heart. There have
been many times when I live with a deep frustration when I am not SEEING them
come to pass, now. (I am a little impatient :)) I think what I am learning and will learn is how to hold
onto what God has said and the promises He has spoken and still live FULLY in
the now. God is in every step of our adventure. He doesn't live only in the “future”
because of the PROMISES we are holding onto. He lives in the now. He lives in
my tomorrow also. He lives where we find ourselves, because He is committed to
me… and to each stage of my journey.
I have this deep seeded desire to be a WORLD CHANGER. Not small.
Like, BIG. I want to be someone who impacts the whole world. Leaves a legacy of
Jesus behind me. Someone who inspires people to LIVE the dreams God entrusts to
them. I want to be a person that sets the “tides” where I find myself. I don’t know
if I have these dreams in my heart because of what I was exposed to as a youth,
because of my amazing parents who always inspired me to live large, or because
God truly has placed these desires in me for His purposes. And most possibly it
is a combination of all of the above.
These dreams and desires will not happen quickly and do not
happen suddenly. What I realize is that
this process of BEING the change will occur how God sees fit. I think
I have a fear that if I don’t SEE the dreams and promises happening right now…
that I may grow dim or mediocre. THAT is something I could never consciously allow
myself to do. But it can creep in so
subtly…
In church yesterday I was challenged about my heart for the
body of Christ. Our pastor spoke about how we often live for and get passionate
about things like movies, bands, trends etc. but we often do not get stirred up
about the body of Christ, the church. It’s
not about doing more “things”. It’s not about performing more actions or
functions. It’s about our heart.
What Christ did for us and what He commissioned us to do is
more REAL than anything we will experience on this earth. His purposes are
eternal and everlasting. Sure, we can get excited about a new “thing” that is
happening, that is not bad. But the question that lingers in my heart is: is my
heart longing for and desiring to see the GREAT THINGS of God displayed in His
Bride… AND how am I participating with Him to accomplish those GREAT THINGS?
Where has the unyielding devotion for Kingdom ways gone? What
has happened to those people who would be willing to stand against the grain
and BE Christ to people?
I am not talking about becoming so super spiritual you are
unreachable and out of touch with reality! I am just challenging myself about
my heart’s focus and passions. I want to LIVE out those dreams that stir the deepest
part of my heart that I mentioned earlier… and to do that I need to become someone
who can do that. Someone sold out. Someone willing like Isaiah…
“Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, ‘Whom shall I send?
And who will go for us?’ And I said, ‘Here I am. Send me.’” Isaiah 6:8
Thanks for sharing Megan! Encouraging and inspiring... I love your heart! It's not foolish or presumptuous to want to change the world for Jesus. It's wise and humble. It's what we were made for and what we're called to do. Such aspirations will bring out who God has truly made us to be (people of hope, energy, and courage -- that's the "wise" part), and also reveal the places where we have room for growth (that's the "humble" part).
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